What Happened...August 1, 2016

It's been so long since I've posted...The holidays, vacations and my grandmothers passing away really effected my journey. I wish I had a really good excuse for it but I don't. I became lazy, I felt as though I was doing really well so I deserved some cheating and it got me to go on a 7 month hiatus!!! I am disappointed in myself, disappointed that the example I have shown my kids has not been a healthy one. I have struggled with body image most of my life but more so since I started having my kids. Putting the needs of other has always come first and I've lost myself in the mix. Comedy, poking fun at myself to others has been my coping mechanism for most my life, thinking that I was not worth anything regardless of me being surrounded by a large, loving family and group of friends.
I became a BeachBody Coach in the hopes it would make me stick to it and realize I had other people looking to me for advice and knowledge but even that didn't work. I was at my wits end until the other day I noticed my little 5 year old daughter laying on the floor doing sit ups and using a hand held weight to do squats. She had been watching a fitness video of her aunt on Facebook on my phone. She said look mommy I am just like Aunt Bekki...wow. It hurt. I mean I was happy she wanted to be healthy like her but man, her seeking that role model figure from someone else cut me deep. Why am I not that positive influence on her? Why am I not leading my daughter into a healthy lifestyle so she can not struggle the same way I have? I could keep asking myself why, why, why or I could make a change to vow that from here on out I will be that person she looks up to...the one that she can seek positive influence from. I want to be her everything and in order to do that I need to work on myself first! (the picture below was taken this day, when she actually got my butt off the couch and on the floor to do sit ups with her).
It was time for a change...I am not saying this change is going to happen overnight or that I am not going to struggle with it for the rest of my life because I will. I just want to take each day as a gift, to not only make myself a better person for ME, but also for my family, friends and those that I can lead into their own journeys to bettering themselves. We have to take it day by day and know we will have slip ups and failures but as long as we can recognize the error and get back on track that's what matters the most. I am hoping by me sharing my Journey of Struggles and Triumph it will keep me accountable and maybe keep you accountable as well.

If I can do this, so can you!!

November 2015 Progress - Sweaty Selfies

A month of new beginnings. I began a round of the 21 day fix and Shakeology. I was finally able to get a pair of sneakers that didn't cause my feet to fall asleep!! Yeah! I was able to add on mileage to my running and thank god for the combat breathing Brent taught me because I finally don't hyper ventilate when I am running! I went from running one mile to 3 in under a month and couldn't be more proud of myself!!

November 3, 2015...Ran down thru Woodlands and Panacea...it was very hot this day but I got it done!! I am definitely looking forward to some relief on this weather!! :)

 


November 11, 2015...this was my first 3 mile run. I wore my new sneakers for this run and it worked out great! I didn't get any shin splints and my feet never fell asleep! I need to get myself to drink more water though because I can definitely feel a difference when I don't get enough water into my system. My route for this run was starting from our house to the intersection at Toledo Blade and Price.

 


November 14, 2015...Finally some cooler weather!! Woke up this morning and wanted to get a run in and was pleasantly surprised to find the air was cool with very little humidity! FINALLY!! I was able to shave off 16 seconds from my avg pace which I was very excited about!! My route for this run was starting from our house to the intersection at Toledo Blade and Price.

October 2015 Progress - Sweaty Selfies

It was a month of craziness...dealing with the everyday stress of motherhood, work and trying to
get on track to build a new house. I knew that excuses were no longer going to get me what I needed out of life so I took the first step in making the changes in myself. Thankfully I have an extremely supportive husband and awesome support at work that keeps me going. I have been working out with Brent (work/family) for a while, he's been showing me the best way to attack things and teaching me not to give up! Hard work will pay off. I will be starting to track everything I do to not only help me stay accountable but to help me see the progress I am making!